Not a great night…

The wedding came and went a couple of weeks ago.  It was a great night… a fun, funky and relaxed event, just like we wanted it to be.  We also had tons of time with family in what could be a one-of-a-kind opportunity.

Now, though, I have to admit that I am missing not going on a honeymoon right away.  We didn’t get any time to celebrate our union, and I spent a lot of time taking care of other people for two weeks straight.  Then, my Honey had to leave town for work and then again for his motorcycle race team.

His racing event has not gone well, with some serious injuries and other less grievous mishaps, and I’ve been very supportive of him.  I’ve responded to every text, offered my sympathy and love, etc.  He, unfortunately, has not been able to return the favor when I tonight found out that my mum’s husband is in the hospital. Granted, he’s got a ton on his plate with this situation, but I have consistently been there as much I can while not being on site.

I’ve spent the last month making time for everyone else’s needs, actually spending very little time or attention on myself.  I did not have my hair done, or a massage, or my makeup or anything else.  I spent all my money and time on other people.  And then I’ve had to be flexible and understanding of my Honey’s time away.  These were all the right things to do, but tonight, I deserved some consideration in return, and I didn’t get it. I’m very hurt, and I’m angry.

I tried to explain to him gently and appropriately, but he still didn’t get it.  I hope he comes to understand because our relationship has to be built on mutual support… not one person’s troubles always taking priority over another’s. 

Naturally, when things like this come up, it makes me want to eat like crazy.  Considering that my weight is already up quite a bit from all the wedding antics and how hard I’ve been working to bring it down, this doesn’t help, and I resent that.  It’s not a great night.