Still Intimidated by the Numbers

March 23, 2008 at 12:39 am 1 comment

I’ve been perusing various weight loss blogs, and I’m amazed by how many bloggers post their weights online.  Some even post pictures of their feet on the scale! 

Although it makes intellectual sense to me that someone would share their stats on a weight loss blog, I’m still shocked when I see it.  I guess it’s because I am still intimidated by that particular set of digits. 

Even after losing 117 pounds, I don’t share my actual weight with anyone.  My BF doesn’t know, unless he’s snuck a peek at my food journal where I record it every day.  In fact, I’ve only recently been able to talk about my specific dress size. 

Somehow, I feel vulnerable revealing these numbers, like someone’s going to laugh at me when I say I wear a size 4-6… as if I need to have my dress tags ready to pull out and show them to prove what I’m saying is true.  Or, like the number on the scale is still too high, despite the fact that it’s 117 pounds lower than it was… as if someone will comment, “You may have dropped a lot of pounds, but you’re certainly not thin.”

I’m not quite sure where this number phobia comes from, especially since everyone else appears to be so comfortable exposing their stats for all the world to read.  Maybe it’s because when I look in the mirror I frequently see a slightly thinner version of Fat Girl, a girl who’s still too round?  I don’t know.  No matter the reason, for now, my stats will stay between me and my food journal.


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  • 1. bhatfield  |  March 23, 2008 at 4:54 am

    I know what you mean. I lost 86 pounds and am within my regular range but I must say I still feel (fat), sorry. I know I am in better shape then I have ever been in my life but it doesn’t matter. Sometimes it just slips in. Oh well, it doesn’t matter. My life is changed for the better. Thanks for your blog.


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