Still Struggling

April 12, 2008 at 1:27 am Leave a comment

The urge to overeat is still pretty ferocious right now.  It’s been a tough week.  Again, I think a lot of it has to do with being overtired and overwhelmed, but it doesn’t make it any less frustrating or scary.

Funny thing is… last night I asked my BF for some reassurance, saying that he liked me when I was 10 pounds heavier so if I gained some weight back, it’d be okay, right?  He said he hadn’t even noticed the difference.  I didn’t know whether to be irritated or relieved.  I guess it’s good that he hadn’t noticed the change, that he still loved and wanted me regardless.  But, part of me was disappointed that he hadn’t noticed my accomplishment.  In the end, I decided that it was kinda stupid to ask for that kind of reassurance in the first place.  I know he wanted me when I was 10 pounds heavier; I didn’t need him to confirm that.  It’s my issue, not his.  I felt silly even bringing it up.

Right now, things are tough for me, so I’m relying on the “one day at a time” philosophy that has helped so many of us with our challenges.  I’m doing the best I can with where I am at this moment.  I can’t do much better than that, but it doesn’t really help.  Oh well… tomorrow is a new day.


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