A Perfect Day?

June 4, 2008 at 3:24 am Leave a comment

Yesterday was one of those extremely rare occurences: a perfect eating day.  I stuck exactly to my calorie goal and ate 100% clean, even with stopping briefly at our favorite bar after work and even with my BF taking me out to dinner.  This happens VERY infrequently; 99.9% of the time, I do not achieve my diet goals exactly as I’ve set them.  There’s that golden 0.1% of the time, though, when something miraculous happens, and I’m able to do it just right.  Yes, yesterday was one of those days, and thinking of it makes me smile.

Today, however, was not one of those days.  It was a more typical day, a “pretty good” day.  I *mostly* achieved my goals today, but I wasn’t perfect.  I am always vaguely disappointed by these days.  There’s a subtle feeling that I’ve let myself down.  I remind myself that, for example, I fit in my 15 sets stairs despite an incredibly busy day, that I ate quality, nutritious food when I really wanted a greasy burger with salty fries, that I stopped myself from gorging when I got home with a voracious appetite.  But then a movie trailer featuring Angelina Jolie flashes on the TV screen, and my flaws come soaring to the forefront, flaws that it seems like I could fix if worked hard enough.  I am discouraged by my inability to make myself the absolute best I can be. 

So, I comfort myself with the thought that tomorrow is another day, another opportunity to get it exactly right, to achieve my goals perfectly, to be strong enough to resist the urge to veer off course.  Tomorrow may very well be one of those wonderful rare occurences, and that possibility sustains me, gives me hope that, if I just keep at it, if I don’t give up, I can do it.

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